Reminiscing

rem·i·nisce  (rm-ns)
intr.v. rem·i·nisced, rem·i·nisc·ing, rem·i·nisc·es

1. To recollect and tell of past experiences or events.
2. (intr) to talk or write about old times, past experiences, etc.
3. recall the past; "The grandparents sat there, reminiscing all afternoon"




I, like many folks my age (I am now 51) reminisce about my youth. Songs, smells, and sights will trigger memories. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes just plain embarrassing. For some reason lately mine have involved Big Mama (just a nickname, not a description). We have been together for 34 years as of this past New Years Eve. I love her more now than ever. It is funny I now understand the lyrics to the Randy Travis song "Forever and Ever, Amen":

"They say that time can play tricks on a memory
And people forget things that they knew
But it's easy to see it's happening to me
I've already forgotten every woman but you"

We seem to rewrite our own histories, we remove all of the bad and only remember the good, we become the heroes of our own plays. In my play, Big Mama (just a nickname, not a description), is the hero, she rescued me and took me on as a project. I am unsure of where I would be with out her. I do know that my life would not have turned out as good or fulfilling.

Unfortunately all stories have to come to an end, I know that mine will end with me in her arms. As MBB (My Big Brother) likes to say, "It's your story, write it any way you want". Of course he means it sarcastically, but that is the way I will write mine.

 If you haven't found your Big Mama (just a nickname, not a description), or Big Man. I hope you do, because life's bumps, ups and downs just don't seem to matter as much when you have someone to share them with..